the right thing?

i cannot!

whether it is doing well in school or becoming anything in this world, i can not succeed well enough for my own personal enjoyment.
the job population in this world, is going down. People losing their jobs and the economy going through the roof. Shy should have been my middle name, getting a job is hard and the main problem in my life at the moment is getting a boyfriend key elements of fear and shyness. oh but you don't need to tell me twice, i already know that!

generally you would think i am the loudness obnoxious person, but inside of me i am nothing more then a scared mouse hiding away inside.. thinking about if i say the wrong thing i have embarrassed myself. I have to be more in this world, i should voice my opinions more.. and say what i really mean to peoples faces, and tell my boss to finally shove it up his arse, and walk out of a job, but as i said if finding a new job was that simple i would have already done that.