make the music STOP!

"burn them down!"

hm hm mm, what to say hello!

i haven't blogged in a while, i was reading through my old blogs and thought.. whoa, things have changed so much!!

example a.
I now have a boyfriend Josh, i have for almost five months now.
The best five months of my life, Every time I'm with him i feel like my heart beats more beats then what is supposed to, It's the best feeling.. The feeling of about to have a heart attack and soon could be six feet under, but who cares. I surely don't, He makes me more happier then anyone in this world. His been through so much in his life time, If i were in the same position i would have broke down so long ago, it's amazing that he doesn't everyday. Valentines day is around the corner (wow just thought back to last year) and Josh and I probably aren't doing anything we have talked about it but i don't think his that sort of guy that celebrates the none holiday event. I only feel joyous for the 14th because I've never had a boyfriend and I've always felt so alone when the time can each year and the girls would bring their roses to school, i was jealous of every girl who had one.. but whatever life goes on, it shouldn't be one day a year that i guy and girl so love for each other it should be everyday.. That's what i think anyways, but I'm so happy at this moment in time i couldn't care less if we do something or not.

example b.
I'm no longer friends with at least 3/4 of my friends.. It's like i've dropped off the planet and no longer exist, I've been so wrapped up in my own little world i haven't stopped to think about what the long term result is going to cause with me and my friends. I feel some what bad in a way but it's life people go people stay.
Thinking back to valentines day last year.. I had at least 30 gay friends from Newcastle who knew me.. now i could only name probably 3 or 4 that i actually talk to now. Like last Valentines day i spent it over at my friends house and got so drunk i couldn't even stand up, i hope this year is somewhat different.

example c.
I have a new job but still keeping maccas on the side
This new job is great, I love the people i work with and the people who come in each day their all so nice. I couldn't have asked for a better job.

So there's my blog for tonight, that's all i could really think of at the moment, Josh is coming over after work, so i better go clean some more :) and ice the icing on this brilliant cake i googled earlier before.
Oh i also turned 18 since the last time i blogged, haven't really done much with the power though, except buy alcohol, smokes and scratchies, won $8 on the scratchie so there is so power RIGHT THERE.